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It’s already tomorrow, and I had shut down my “office” for the night… Then while preparing the kitchen for the day to come, my thoughts were reeling. I sighed a bit, and then I thought, ” Well, God won’t give me more than I can handle..” and I felt in my spirit how wrong that was.. so my spirit and mind began the hyper drive it goes into from time to time, and I find myself here, with a clean kitchen, in the wee hours, computer back on writing to you in the first time in ages to tell you why I was lying to myself, and you may be, too.
” God won’t give you more than you can handle, ” is probably the most unsound advice we give to people as Christians, and we need to stop.
The past few years have been a whirlwind of lots of stuff that threatened to take me out on a daily basis. I don’t even want to go there.. because the majority of it is still building a MIGHTY testimony, and I am going to allow that to be thwarted by using my little words to try to explain God’s big plans that I believe to be unfolding.. and this, none of this, has ever been about me. I will tell you, though, that I have gotten far more than I can handle.. and not one ounce of it came from the God who knit me together in my mother’s womb, who calls the stars into order, and who sent His Son to save my dirty self so that I may know Him.
There is nothing scriptural about that. Yeah, yeah.. Plagues, Floods, Famines.. oh my. I know. These things were and are relevant to the story that we are part of, I won’t negate that. What I will tell you, and what can be charted all through the Bible, is that what God allows, is not always what He approves. Is Wrath for real? Hell, yes.. these are real things.. but these are NOT the things for me. I stand (well, sit) here today, on the side of Redemption.. and I can go around picking those things up if I choose.. but they are not FOR me, and they definitely aren’t things I was meant to handle, not alone.
Even in Eden, God saw that it was not good for man to be alone.. so he made Eve. And every person after that, had someone to go with them… When Christ commissioned the disciples, they were sent by twos… and even more to the point:
JESUS WAS ALONE ON THAT CROSS SO YOU WOULDN’T HAVE TO BE.
You will have more than you can handle, because you aren’t built to handle anything alone. We are arrogant creatures, not by creation, but by self-righteousness. We allow ourselves to become independent to the point of destruction. We’ve done it since the beginning of time, and if we keep believing that we have a strength on our own to handle these situations that we are confronted with, we always will.. but we can seriously change the affliction to ourselves just by knowing these simple truth..
GOD IS STILL ON HIS THRONE.
Jesus said, ” Take heart, for I have overcome the world.” He overcame the world. All of it. He handled all that stuff that we keep telling people that they are strong enough to handle, or that He won’t give them more of it than they can… IT IS FINISHED. We are supposed to believe that with every fiber of our being to a point that it flows through us, out of us, and changes things. The creative power of our words should shake the very gates of Hell, that Satan should tremble and FLEE from the situations that we are presented with, because he knows we are vessels of Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and we are operating in The Name that wrecked his sin party that was planned.
Please, stop parading calamity, and start praying comfort that is only accessible by leaning in to Jesus. He alone is The Way, The Truth, The Life… Boast in your weakness and your need for Him.. stop telling people they can do it on their own. They can’t.
I think the hardest part of people knowing that you aren’t a quitter, is that they expect you not to ever rest, either.
Since my last post, I have not forgotten my readers. As a matter of fact: I have missed you. I just really, really have been so consumed that I haven’t been able to write.
My former husband, and daughter’s father passed away after a brief, intense battle with cancer. I found out things I never wanted to, and have swallowed them… because it’s what comes out of our mouth that defiles us, and I am going to walk that out.
The experience taught me that I have been right about so much that I honestly wanted to be wrong about. I will be the wisdom to the foolishness of these things… because I will apply my pain to the path before me, and what Jesus has healed will be the foundation I stand upon for others to not suffer by my hand.
I am working on the rest and will write again soon.
Be Blessed in The Lord.
This month while travelling, I had a significant layover in Lexington, Kentucky.
It is about 18 degrees outside, and the company (by which I mean corporation) I was travelling with was only an outdoor waiting area. When the cab dropped me off at the location, I went to seek some shelter. The area I found was inside the Lextran Transit Center. I had not ever been to Lexington alone, and I was scheduled to be there for a couple hours. I was fasting, but had snacks with me in case I was released from it along the way.
The station was set up with two rows of seats facing a glass wall so that people could see their bus as it arrived. There were also two additional rows of seats against the wall. I would guess about 40 seats in all. There were only 3 seats available. There were two that were one per side of a man who was screaming at the top of his lungs; the other was located on the wall. Clearly, I took the one on the wall.
A couple things to keep in mind here:
1) Loud noises and I do not play nicely with one another.
2) I try to avoid things I do not play nicely with, because they trigger my epilepsy.
I reached out for prayer support with a text to my most substantial prayer partners, simply reading, “Pray.” That’s how I roll.. God knows what I need, you are talking to God on my behalf, Jesus is already interceding for me, I am covered.
Meanwhile, this man is continuing to scream at the top of his lungs, and my discernment made it know that it was schizophrenia. I closed my eyes and said, “Holy Spirit, lead me,” then decided to go into the restroom to pray. When I got up, the man started yelling at me. The whole time I was in there praying I heard him carrying on. This was not going to happen, I absolutely refused to allow this man to carry on like this.
When I walked out of the restroom, and began yelling at me again.. Remember the woman in Acts 16 screaming behind Paul and Silas? I am pretty sure I know what that was like now. Without paying any attention to him, and having yet to even look at this man other than assessing the seating arrangements, I took my previous seat.
I put my head down, and I quietly prayed until it happened. Complete stillness, total Peace. And I heard His Voice, He said, “Look at James.”
And, so… I did. I lifted my head and made certain to make eye contact with this man who was already looking at me, yelling, his facial features contorted. And when I made eye contact, his face relaxed. He became completely silent, and when he spoke again, his voice was softer.
“Hey… hey. How? What? Who taught you to do that? Do you even KNOW who you are?”
“Taught me to do what?” I replied.
“You. Man, I don’t even understand what just happened.”
“That makes two of us,” I told him.
The thing is, I know what happened. This isn’t the first time it has happened. Jesus in me took over, and James recognized that.
I actually got my iPhone out, and have a short video of that very exchange if anyone would like to see it…
A bus arrived, and the waiting area cleared out. James stayed, though. I just sat there quietly watching him watch me. Again, he said, “Do you even KNOW who you are?”
This time I responded, “Yes, James, I do know. Quite well. I guess you know, too, huh? Well, Jesus brought me here, so now what?”
He got up and started pacing, and looking at me and muttering. His PTSD showed up, his schizophrenia showed up, and all kinds of adversity. As a woman, I was in danger. I am not joking when I tell you, everything over and in this man meant me harm.
And, I wasn’t scared. Here’s where it gets crazy…
I looked him right in the eyes, and said, “James, you just need to be still. Jesus loves you. Here, come sit right here. Are you hungry? I have some snacks. Would you like some?”
He sat right next to me, he had to.
Do you read me? I spoke to the MAN that Jesus died for, and told him to sit next to me. I didn’t address the other spirits, I spoke to James. The other spirits were under God’s Sovereignty, and this man’s heart needed Love. The look on his face was something I will not ever forget. He was filthy, reeking, and had no idea why this woman wanted to eat with him. I got out all the snacks, told him to take what he wanted… and his face. I saw Jesus, I know I did.
And that’s all I have to say about that.
“And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’
There is so much goodness in The Kingdom of God. So much to taste and see, that The Lord IS good. So often, really too often, we get so frustrated by what we see.. And on the other side of that, that which we cannot see. Forgetting that this is a FAITH walk. Forgetting that everything has its purpose. That ALL things work for the good of those who love God, and are called according to His Purpose. When we walk IN that purpose, it’s all faith.. And it’s all good.
So the question is: are you walking in His Purpose, or your own? Are you telling God what you need, or are you asking God, what does The Kingdom need?
How can you contribute to The Kingdom, with all that God has done for you?
Be blessed by being a blessing. God is for you, why be against yourself?
“You have a tendency to catch everything you touch on fire, Angelea, and it’s wonderful. Still, I have to tell you, that you don’t get to choose what makes it out. Some things will be completely incenerated, as they should be. Whatever makes it through, is going to be refined, and that is a beautiful trait. Don’t be surprised when things burst into flames, just know you won’t be burned by them.”
Be mindful, beloved…
1 But now, this is what the LORD says– he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. 3 For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I give Egypt for your ransom, Cush and Seba in your stead. 4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life. 5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west. 6 I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’ and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’ Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth— 7 everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.” 8 Lead out those who have eyes but are blind, who have ears but are deaf. 9 All the nations gather together and the peoples assemble. Which of them foretold this and proclaimed to us the former things? Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right, so that others may hear and say, “It is true.” 10 “You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. 11 I, even I, am the LORD, and apart from me there is no savior. 12 I have revealed and saved and proclaimed– I, and not some foreign god among you. You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “that I am God. 13 Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?”