If you could feel the gales that have ripped through my sails, you’d see why I’m so skilled on the open sea. The weight of the buckets I was forced to bail, the number of times I’ve adjusted the mainsail. The pressure that makes the barometer fall, has brought me to surrender that rises me above it all. The winds they blow, and the waves they swell… but they rock me to sleep in the Peace of The One my soul knows so well. At times, I’ve feared, and begged for the shore. Now, I see that don’t need to be rescued from a storm that surrounds. My safe harbour- Grace, abounds.
~Angelea Kae January 14, 2014
When I first set to writing this blog, I thought I was coming out of the biggest storm of my walk with Christ. Very quickly, it became apparent, that it was more like the eye of the hurricane. I wrote the above poem, stepping into the clearing with sigh of relief.
“Thank You, Jesus… wait, Lord? Is that thunder??!!!”
In October of 2012, I started the process that would have me diagnosed with moderate/severe endometriosis. Weeks before that, it was the best day of my life to date, when God returned my little girls. The next thing I know, I’m crippled by the pain in my womb. It took six months, and my world corroding around me to get to the documentation that said, “Yeah, it’s bad.”
I’m a faith walker, and I believe God for big things every day, maybe I’ll get into some of these testimonies sometime, soon. So, when I recieved the diagnosis, I said, “Jesus, You are going to heal me. Not because of who I am, because of who You are. I believe it, I receive it, in Jesus’ Name!”
I received alot of feedback. I spent hours a day crying out to God. Endometriosis is a VERY painful disease. Ending with usually with a hysterectomy to end the agony. All day I was listening to worship music, reading my Bible.
And, I also moved 3 times.
Then the surgeon called. Operation scheduled.
I was devasted. I immediately said, “God, I don’t know what is going on here, but I trust You. Forgive me if I am selfish for wanting You to heal me, but I know You are willing, able, and a loving God.”
And I held on. I remember the night before my operation, during all the preparation involved, I had a meltdown. My friend, who was driving me to my surgery, put on “This is The Air I Breathe” by Vineyard. He prayed for me, and to God’s Glory, I fell asleep.
The next day, we prayed on the way there.. before I went back, we prayed again. The plan was to remove the endometrioma, and quite possibly some intestine. Whatever was causing the pain.
45 minutes later, the doctor came into the waiting room, and looked at him, and said, “I don’t know what to say, there is nothing in there. She’s perfectly healthy.”
When he came back into the recovery room, he told me what the doctor said, and I said one word.
HALLELUJAH! MY HEALER LIVES!!!
My pain, and all other abnormalities, are gone. Not diminished, GONE.
I have a documented healing from the Lord Jesus Christ. And, it came on my birthday. A year to the day that God returned my little girls, He also restored my womb. HALLELUJAH!!!!
God is good, ALL the time.
I pray that this post has left you encouraged, that Jesus still heals. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Hallelujah! God is Faithful to His Word!
To be honest, I have no idea where this blog will be going, I know the journey will be worthwhile that brings each post, though.
Romans 8:28 NIV
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.